Friday, November 29, 2013

In Which My Heart Cracks Open, Just a Little Bit More...

This last year has been rough.

Lots and lots of work. Not enough sleep. More money going out than coming in. Some dependable help, some not so. Some amazingly abundant loving experiences, some depressing low points. The stuff of which life is made.

I've also been struggling about a lot of what is going on here at Dancing Rabbit Ecovillage. Growing pains, wanting to support folks in whom I believe but having a hard time with some of the decisions that have been made. Feeling like a poor communitarian, wondering if we should just pack up and move on, wanting to contribute but unable to with a happy heart.

Knowing that it is all in my attitude, that I make my own reality, that I have little control over what happens but TOTAL control about how I choose to spin it in my head.

But I just couldn't get over that bump. You know, the bump that is placed in front of abundance, kindness, happiness and satisfaction. The bump that I always trip over. I kept getting stuck in the "I hate everything I see" gutter that is right in front of the bump. 

Fortunately, FINALLY, a series of events - too long and convoluted to relay here - coincided with a visit from Kurt's niece Danae, who is pretty much sunshine incarnate, to lift my spirits and help me truly SEE what is around me.

And then this video was posted on Facebook.



I can't stop watching it. I can't stop singing it as I wander around through my life. I love the girls with bouquets of kale at 1:07, the kids at 4:33, the boy in the blue shirt at 4:47 singing so earnestly. I want to invite the man who is singing at 4:35 to dinner.

And keep moving forward and start looking towards your heart

It'll open all the doors and only then you'll start

To hear the world sing in chorus with your mind and heart

Aligned in purpose everything will feel gorgeous

Thank you Nimo Patel and Daniel Nahmod. I am grateful for this song, and the music and heart that you bring into the world.


Grateful: A Love Song to the World

by Nimo Patel and Daniel Nahmod
(emphasis on the parts that I find especially moving today ~Alline)
Written and produced by Nimo Patel and Daniel Nahmod - See more at: http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=4460#sthash.404QwDFA.TxZl8JV3.dpuf



You're my life, you're my breath You're a smile, you're my guest
You're the earth, you're the sun You're the grass, you are love
You're my hands, you're a bug You're my eyes, you're a hug
You're the light in the dark You're the spark, you are fun
You're my mom, you are water You're the stars, you're my daughter
You're my friend till the end You're my dreams, you're my father
You're the ants on the ground The miracles that surround
I'm feelin' it all around the hemisphere and the clouds
You're my pain, you're my sorrow You're my hope for tomorrow
You're the strength when I'm hollow You're the path that I follow
You're the blessings that exist The small things that are bliss

The gift to realize that everything is a gift

All that I am All that I see
All that I've been
And all that I'll ever be
Is a blessing
It's so amazing
And I'm grateful for it all
For it all
Grateful for it all

You're the blessings every time I try to count
You're the lessons that l learn every time I turn around
You're the water when I'm burned every time I think I've found
Everything I'm looking for and the sign sayin' stop to take a bow
And keep moving forward and start looking towards your heart

It'll open all the doors and only then you'll start

To hear the world sing in chorus with your mind and heart

Aligned in purpose everything will feel gorgeous

All that I am All that I see
All that I've been
And all that I'll ever be
Is a blessing
It's so amazing
And I'm grateful for it all
For it all

Every day I sit and pray 'cause what I have is
More than I deserve or could ever imagine
How do I give back to all of this magic
And spread the love so everybody can have it
Doesn't matter if I'm rich or poor If I got a family or if I'm all alone
Bad things happen I can just complain and moan

But there's a million things that I can be grateful for

So I lift up
My hands now
And I open my heart
And my gratitude
Goes out
To everything
Near and far 

All that I am
Everything I am - All that I see
All that I've been
And all that I'll ever be
Is a blessing
It's so amazing
And I'm grateful
For it all
All that I am
All that I see
All that I've been
And all that I'll ever be
Is a blessing
It's so amazing
And I'm grateful
For it all For it all
For it all
For it all
Grateful for it all
For it all
For it all
You're the blessings that exist
The small things that are bliss
The gift to realize that everything is a gift


Thanks for reading. Sending love and gratitude to you this Thanksgiving weekend, and always.
Alline